Without Love

The words I said I didn't mean. Angry, agony swell up in me. Overwhelming pain drowns me.
Your gone. There is no forever. I become lost, broken but alive. Life is now a strange sensation. What is life without love?

Last Letter to Daniel

I thought I was done writing letters to you on a blog where you most likely will never read them but I guess I have one last one to write. After our last fight man I was so angry, here we had fixed things only to fight again. And again you were right and man do I hate being wrong!
But I realized we are very different people who live very different lives. You take everything so serious you forget to have a little fun and I put myself to out there only to be hurt realizing life isn't a fairytale.
Everyone saw how awful my relationship was and you tried to talk sense into me but I wanted to believe he loved me, that we could find away. But we didn't and we won't.It sucks cause believe it or not we did love each other.
I know I have a lot of growing up to do and maybe I have a little but I also feel like I'm losing myself and my old life. Maybe change is good, maybe the past should stay behind me. Actually that last sentence makes a lot of sense. The past should be left behind.
Good-Bye

Hurt!

I hate confessions!

I hate that I pour my heart out only to have it ripped out!
I hate that I love him with every piece of my broken heart!
I hate not wanting to let go!
I hate that cried in front of my friends over him!
I hate that I can't stop thinking of him!
I hate that he is moving on without me!
But mostly I hate this pain... I'd rather be anger to admit this pain, this sorrow. I wan to be angry!
I Hate that I'm not angry.... Only hurt!

Step Up

GRRRRR

I love you! But I don't know what to do or say. I keep pouring out my heart but you never tell me how you feel. You say you still love me but you leave it at that. I'm losing my mind! I need your help... If you want to be with me Step Up!

Save Me

"I tear my heart open I sew my self shut my weakness is that I care too much"

Yeah I lied...I even lied to myself. I miss you, i love you! And that's hard to admit.
I'm scared of so much and these emotions are raw and out there for you
This love has no guarantees
The razor is calling my name and my wrist is longing for its touch
I love you, I'm scared, I'm beginning to go numb
I need you to save me

You Never Loved Me At All

Why would you purposely hurt someone you love or better yet HOW could you purposely hurt someone you love?
This question has been haunting me and the answer is beyond my knowledge. I know I have messed up before and caused a lot of grief but I always had good intentions. I may walk a little bit sideways at times but I always took the road less traveled just for you. I did all I could and still it wasn't enough. & it will never be enough simply because fate will take its course. I admit I am a handful and a long shot gamble but never am I a flat out jerk. My life couldn't stopping spinning till you decided to come around. But the answer to my question might just be: You Never Loved Me At All

I do NOT miss him!

I won't admit it! I refuse to admit it! I don't care if it's true, I'm not admitting it!
I do NOT miss him!
I hope he's happy doing whatever cause obviously my feelings don't matter! I didn't mean to hurt him, I was only telling him the truth. He is an amazing guy but I'm not in love with him. I care about him and love him but he just isn't the right person for me.
& yeah i have a crush on this crazy rock star but i haven't seen him since our date. Talked to him some on fb but that's it. He's cool and all but really it's just a stupid crush... my ex shouldn't have made such a big deal about him but whatever.
I do NOT miss him!