Muse

I found a reason to write a muse if you must say. Pondering if two is better than one. . . The moment where the butterflies are everywhere, the moment where your breath is taken away, the moment you never want to let go. The start of something new, a little awkward or nervous but just that kiss drives it all  away and the only thought your left with is wow. Maybe I can believe that two is better than one. It's worth the risk, so Dear Heart, prepare for an adventure !

My Twisted Havoc

This Twisted soul is starting to be well content

He may not be labeled as my "boyfriend" but we have an amazing time together and that's all that matters. Only one week left of College and looking back on this year I've made some pretty epically awesome friends ♥ I've fallen several times and left many scars but each time I got back up and started a new adventure. So what if I made a lot of mistakes I'm not perfect. . . I'm Twisted!

And I wouldn't Have it any other way as a start my next adventure. . . About 2 and a half weeks out till Basic Training where I'll become Army Strong and Who knows what Havoc awaits me there (:

Foolishly Burned

I hope your doing well & by the way thanks! I finally enlisted yesterday just like you said I would. I gave up on my self so many times but you never did, you knew I would make it. Everyone is so proud of me and I'm just eating up all the attention. I know though you'd be prouder than any of them because you understand everything I went through, in fact you went through a lot of the same things.
I hope the Navy is everything you hoped for and more! I hope you made lots of friends and excelled in p.t. and everything else they threw your way. I'm sure you did though you are amazing and have tons of determination. I wish we hadn't burned this bridge but I won't admit I miss you.
Things are Going Well here and I hope it is there too.

This letter is to an amazing guy you will never get for the bridges we Foolishly Burned !

Forget The World

Live. Laugh. Love♥

Never been my motto or my style. I live each day because I have to and laugh when expected. Love I know to well and the earthly pain within it.
Today was different though. Went over to a friends house I graduated with. He has a beautiful lake house him and his dad built. 3 stories and a man cave, which is his hang/ party room. Leather seats and coach wide screen tv with a ps3 and a home office.
Went out on his jet ski, which I'd never done before. It was really cool he took me to a rock jump and we went for a swim. It was very relaxing to be with him. We got back to the house before the storm and his mom invited me to diner.
Today was what I need to prove happiness is real. I lived today because I want to with an amazing friend. I laughed not because it was expected but because I had a good time and I love having a friend I can just get out and have fun with, be myself and FORGET THE WORLD.

Depression

I figured out what was wrong with me. I feel relived to know I'm not just crazy and I'm not alone. Depression runs in my family so good chances are that's what I have. So I found treatments without meds.

Exercise
Regular exercise helps you to feel healthier, increases the production of natural "feel good" chemicals in the body, boosts self-esteem and significantly reduces the symptoms of depression, stress and anxiety

Social Support
loneliness is one of the major causes of depression

Talk About It
Writing about your feelings is also therapeutic, so keep a journal, write a book or consult a professional.

Do Nice Things For Yourself
Learn how to say 'No' to others when it is appropriate and 'Yes' to yourself when you need it.

Diet
A carbohydrate rich diet helps the body produce serotonin - the 'feelgood' chemicall

Learn to Relax or Meditate
Relaxation techniques and meditation are easy to learn and are so effective in relieving stress, anxiety, and depression that I wonder why they are not routinely prescribed or even taught as a life skill at school!

Understand Your Symptoms
Symptoms of depression and anxiety are very troublesome, but they are also an 'early warning' signal from your body that something is not right and needs to change.

Feelgood Tip
Without looking loony, make eye contact, smile and greet each person you meet or pass (as long as it's not in a dark alley!). Count how many return your smile. Not only does it feel good to have people smile at you, the facial muscles involved in smiling send messages to the brain, causing an increase in production of natural feelgood brain chemicals!

Maybe after 10 years I have found a solution to twist my view into something happy. Cause I will always be Twisted, it's my uniqueness but maybe I can Twist Happily.

World View

"Happiness is not the absence of problems, or heartache, but the ability to deal with them."

& That's what I should remember in the middle of the storm. Rain makes rainbows and Lighting lights up the sky. It isn't all so bad. The world wants to Knock you down and make happiness impossible, so maybe you should just twist your WORLD VIEW.